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DarkJaiAngel
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Name: Jai
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Birthday: 3/17/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: I love to read and i play the sax. Im into guys. Yes im a fag get over it. I play thecard game Magic The Gathering. Theres lots of other stuff just ask and i shall tell.
Expertise: Well im an expert dog groomer. As well as an expert Dick sucker.
Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Yahoo:  DarkJaiAngel
Member Since:
8/2/2005
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| Things swirling through my head keeping my thoughts constantly moving. One thing, then another, then agian, and then all over. Release me of my prison within my mind. Let me soar the limitless bounds of my imagination once more. Stuck in the concious world of the liveing drags the life from my soul. Stealing every breath i take with an unseen hand that chills to the bone. As the life drains i look for ways to escape back into the dream. The world of night and visions of wants made true. I want escape! Will you be my escape? | | |
| Lost Within A Dream
Current mood:  peaceful
Lost within a dream i can not help but wonder. How do you defeat the dream world in which everything is possible. How do you defeat the dreamer without defeating yourself. How do you keep yourself from waking back into reality. How do you keep the dream going so that you may never have to leave. You must become lost in your dream. You must become so emersed in your dream it becomes reality where everthing is possible but you make it normal forgetting that you can do anything. You defeat the dreamer by becomeing the self in the dream. You make the dream reality so that you keep yourself from waking that you may stay forever. But what if the fleating moment know as life is truly just a dream. If that be true then when you die you simply wake to relize it was a dream. Then you fall asleep again to start a dream anew. With every death there is a new life that is created. You do this not even realizing that life is not what it seem. That you go through one and then anther again and again. You wake from the life and then fall asleep to start anew. If this is to be true then we would be next to immortal. To live so many lives to know so many people. To have loved all those people and then to have loved some agian. Dreams interconnect showing us the past. Giving us the future therefore holding time still. Never leaping forward except when we die and then stoping agian when we sleep. How much time has come and gone and then how much time has truly come and gone. How many lives have we lived. How many people have we loved. To be lost within a dream would be a wonderful and yet terrible thing. The glory and pain we put ourselves through. The chance to make a perfect life. The one life that we would never wake from but be immortal. Never ageing, never feeling the effects of deceise, loss, and heart ache. To feel the joy of love forever. To know that you will never leave those you truely care. To never have to face the lonelyness of reality. To alwasy be a dreamer. To be lose within a dream. To have finally defeated the dream world in which you can do anything. To have defeated the dreamer and to have saved yourself. To making reality the dream and forever the dream reality. To never leave the dream. To be happy. To being Lost Within A Dream. | | |
| I walk in side my forest. My friends will follow. One has gone ahead. She wants to help clear the path. She shows me true friendship and i love her all the more for it. My path is now unseen. The maze i could see what was in front of me. Here i can only guess. I decided to guard myself. Put up my walls. You never know what may come at you. Or what direction it will come from. The oasis is behind me now. I know others lie ahead. I will find them. Who will i lose in my Jungle. I know the one determined to clear my path will never be lost. She is there forever. Especally in my heart. Others are there to but they dont know what they want. Weither to be in my life of just drift in and out. They will choose there path in my life. Just as long as they know my love is unconditional and always will be. So now it is time to look forward and continue my journey. I will make it where i want to go. Who will come with me though? That is the puzzeling question! We shall see. We shall hope. But most of all who will be there to love me unconditional as i love them? | | |
| Well for all those of you that read this i am in love. I am going to see what happens. I hope this is it. I dont know if i can stand another heart break. TTFN. Ta Ta For Now.
Jai | | |
| My days get brighter and brighter. Someone comes back into my life. They tell me they want me back. I want them as well. But first i must finish my journey. Will he walk beside me and over joy my heart as he once did? Or will he break it once more? Only he can answer that question. What will you do? Will you walk with me through my troubles or will you leave me once more? | | |
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